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The Waiting is the Hardest Part

I don't know if I can actually say,  what I'm feeling is "anticlimatic" or not.  I know I feel all of the last two weeks stress all of a sudden.  I guess during the time I was getting ready for my interview I was too pumped up on adrenaline to notice how freaked out I was.  

I put everything that I could, at this point of my life.  If it doesn't go my way then I will realize that I am not ready to take on that position.  I feel that I am and I want it so bad I can taste it, but It is now out of my hands.  All the signs have been pointing to my getting this job so I can finally start my career.  I just don't know.  I couldn't read the situation.  There are so many variables involved in the process.  I know I bombed on a question or two and I should've added some info at the end, but choked and didn't.  Still, as far as I know, there is hope.  Now I just need to figure out a way to remember the interviewer's names to send the thank you notes, I forgot to write them down and that is a, must-do-step!  

I guess after all is said and done I did come away from this experience with some great things.  My confidence increased by 100%.  I collected a settlement on my judgement.  I know,  for a fact, I could've collected the full amount, but I needed the money now.  The main point is that I collected on it, myself with no help.  I also got as far as an interview with the county and that is a BIG accomplishment in itself.  I have a goal and I went for it with everything I could.  I took my shot for all it was worth.  I didn't back down.  I am proud of myself.  Now I need to keep the faith and wait for the decision which will give me an idea of which direction my life will go in. 

If all of that wasn't good enough, my bf found learned how to do something really nice with his mouth.  It doesn't get better than this.

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yaussie
Jun. 21st, 2007 09:15 am (UTC)
Sorry for posting in your journal... but I noticed recently you joined the community not_all_beauty and I'm just giving you a friendly reminder to please post your application within 24 hours or I will have to remove you from the community.

If you cannot post within that time, please respond and I will give you an extension for however long you need it. This is just so I know who really wants to be in the community, there is no lurking. Thank you and if you have any questions feel free to respond to this comment and I will help you where ever I can.

Thanks again,
Sara (moderator of not_all_beauty)
billzy
Jul. 3rd, 2007 06:17 pm (UTC)
Hi, not sure your using this much so im going to remove you. Let me know if you come back :)
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