I feel like a sad slow country song.I'm not sure why. I guess if I really wanted to look I could find a few things to feel this way about. Maybe it's pms. I hate this feeling. It comes and goes so much I should be used to it. I guess I should be thankful that I am learning how to head it off before I am in bed for days from it. I don't even feel like trying to figure it out and fix it. I would much rather be in denial about it and try and pretend I don't feel it. I might talk to my boyfriend about it. He will probably say all the right things, but maybe he is the reason. He hasn't done anything obvious lately, but is there something I don't know about! Why does it always go back to that!? Are my instincts telling me something or am I so wacked in the head I don't even know. Maybe there is something else bothering me and I want to put it on him so I have a reason to back up from him and this relationship because it's getting to close for my comfort. I mean I have always wanted a relationship like this but whenever I left myself open to it, I got it slammed back in my face. Will I let that happen to myself again? I don't fucking know.
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